Happy (belated) Thanksgiving!

I did not get to post yesterday to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving, so Happy Thanksgiving everyone! We had a good day. We went to eat with my grandparents and then Daddy Edgar had to work yesterday evening. So the kids and I went to a friends house and stayed there until it was time to pick up edgar from work. He got off at 11pm. The kids were so tired and as soon as we got home they went to sleep. Baby ate and ate until we thought he was going to bust. He likes to eat big people food now. Yesterday with my grandparents he ate sweet potatoe casserole, mashed potatoes, little pieces of turkey and ham, a little dressing. He also ate banana pudding and red velvet cake. He did not have his own plate full of this stuff, he ate with me, but he would sure let me know when he wanted his bite. Edgar said he is going to get sick from eating too much. He really was not eating alot, because I was giving him just a little at a time. He loved everything. Elisa ate very good also. She ate Pizza, mac and cheese, a little dressing and bread. Oh by the way we went to Golden Corral. My grandmother did not feel like cooking and she suggested that we go out. It worked out good because Edgar does not really care for all the traditional Thanksgiving dinner, so he got to choose what he ate. He ended up eating steak, chicken, veggies. He also tried dressing and he liked it. I said you need the home made stuff. So maybe I will cook some chicken and dressing soon. (If I ever have the oven again)
Last night after we got home and the kids were asleep we wanted to go to the Mexican dance, so Edgars cousin said for us to go ahead and he would listen for them. We really do not go out that much to places like that. We had fun, they served turkey, rice, and beans at the dance. It was really nice. I hope everyone had a great day yesterday. More later!

Fingers crossed....

I may be looking forward to a new job. I sent my resume off to be reviewed upon their request and I am hoping that I will be getting a phone call soon. I am really excited because it is a day job, but then again I am sad to leave where I have been for almost 4 and a half years. It's like a 2nd home here and I really will miss the people. But life is full of changes and if I am offered this position I will be making a step up! I will be off on weekends and I will be working during the day. Only now, Daddy Edgar works during the evening so I will not get as much time with him. But in a way it will be good, I can be with the kids at night and also we will not have a baby-sitting bill!! Woo-hoo!! If anyone ever wants to go into business that would be the best thing because that is something that will always be in need- childcare!
Anyway, what is everyone doing for Thanksgiving? I think that me, daddy edgar, elisa and baby edgar will be going to Golden Corral with my granny and my granddad. I know there is going to be a loooong line there. My granny said that she was too tired to cook this year and I was going to, but for some reason my oven will not work. Daddy Edgar and his cousin are content cooking on top of the stove, they don't even miss the ability to bake something. I would like from time to time to bake a cake or some cookies or a dinner or maybe Thanksgiving Dinner! The landlord is kind of slow. I mean if we told him today about the oven he would probably come around Saturday or Sunday to see about it.
Elisa turned 4 on Saturday and we had a birthday party for her at pizza hut. It was really nice. About 9 adult and 13 kids cam, that is including Elisa. She had fun and when we were singing happy birthday she looked so serious.. like she had been waiting for this day forever. I wanted to invite alot more people, but my budget would not let me. If I had, there may have been 30 people there. Next month Baby Edgar will be 1 and I have to figure out where to have his party. Since Daddy is Mexican I want to mix the cultures.. you know tres leche cake and an American cake. I would like to have carnitas. If you have not tried carnitas they are good. The only way I have eaten them is fresh from a pig that has just been cooked. They are good and I am funny about what I eat. I would like to do that and then have hot dogs and hamburgers for those who do not eat that. I would like to do this so baby will learn that he has 2 cultures.
Almost Christmas time... I hope that baby will be walking by then. Elisa is really excited. This is really the 1st year she knows who Santa Claus is. When she sees him she says look edgar there's Santa Claus. Elisa got a Christmas dress and I would like to take her to see Santa at the mall in it. I am going to get Edgar an outfit to match. Hopefully I can get some pics uploaded soon.

Happy Thanksgiving if I do not post before!

New Baby Boy!!!

Today a friend of mine had a C section and had a cute little baby boy! The exciting part..... I was there as translator/ support person/ photographer! I was so happy. Let me start off by telling you about her and you will see why i chose to go in with her when she asked me.
She had been baby sitting my 2 kids in the evenings while i was at work. She kept them until she couldn't. Her husband would help her out with them because my 10 month old is a little heavy especially for a pregnant lady. Even when she was not going to be able to keep them she helped me find someone. Her neighbor next door had already volunteered to keep them. She is a stay at home mom and after meeting her and seeing that she is attentive and keeps her house clean and does not smoke or drink, i decided that was the way to go until Maria (my pregnant friend) was able to keep them again. (Note- my kids have always stayed with mexican ladies except for a few months when they went to daycare- which i hated to see end. The state helped me pay for it and i paid only 33 dollars a week for each of them. I loved the daycare it was clean, organized and they even had little parties for the holidays and even baby brought home a gift or an easter basket. The staff loved my kids and were sad when i had to take them out- no way could i afford 200 a week. Hold up on the negative comments- who ever feels they need to point out the fact that i had the state help me. i work and pay taxes and i have the right to whatever benefits that are offered. so if you cant say something nice then go to the next blog- the button is at the top of the page. ;)
Maria is the same age as me and she is alone here except for her husband. She wants to be in Mexico, but is here because her oldest son who is 5 likes it here and her husband wants to be here. She is scared because she has never had a baby in the US and does not know what to expect.
So I started seeing myself in a few months when I am in Mexico. I am going to be alone except for my kids and daddy edgar, of course his family is there, but I really do not know them well. I really want to be in the US, but he wants to go to Mexico- he says that it is not like home here it is all work and then turn around and have to pay everything you earn out in bills. (He has a pig selling business in mexico and some land and a store that his family is taking care of for him right now) And if I was pregnant I would be scared to have a baby in Mexico also. (Which I maybe would as long as it was in a big city.)
So when she asked me to go in I said sure I will and asked me to take pictures and I said sure no problem. After all it was only a C section- I mean how bad could it be?
It was not bad at all! Of course I did not watch them start cutting, but as soon as I saw the pulling I knew that they were pulling the baby out and I could not help myself I stepped around the corner and started snapping pics- did not even notice the stuff around. To see a baby be born to me was the sweetest ,most precious thing to witness. It is the beginning of a new life and I got to see it happen. Then the baby cried and Maria cried and I did a little, but I had to be photographer then. So I went to where they were with the baby and snapped away. Then as soon as they were finished with him, they handed him to me and that is when my thoughts drifted back to my baby edgar's birthday and it made me happy inside like i wanted to have another baby myself. (Hold up- did i just say or type that???? Maybe later when baby edgar can walk and is about 2 years old)
What an experience- I would definetley go in with someone again. Oh by the way he is too cute!

To all you moms-to-be out there what a miracle you have in your stomach! take care of it
To all you moms what a great thing you have done, what a beautiful and wonderful thing.
To all of the mothers who adopted their babies (including my beloved grandmother) it takes more than being pregnant and having a baby to me a mother! I know! my grandmother is the best person i know and she adopted my mother.
To all the mothers who gave their babies in adoption- you know you reason and whatever it may be you STILL did a beautiful thing and it takes alot to make that decision- to accept that you are unable and give the baby life and a chance to be the best they can. They will love you for that! (I love my grandmother and I thank my moms biological mom for giving her a better life. I have my grandmother and she has shown me more love in my life)
To all the mothers who lost their babies while pregnant or after they were born, my heart goes out to you! I am sad for you and I can feel your pain as you have to lay aside the dreams, plans, and hopes you had for that precious child.
Even to all of those who decided to have abortions (for reasons other than medical reasons, rape, incest- that is not for me to judge i have never been there and do not know what i would do) my heart goes out to you that you decided not to go through with your pregnancy.

Sad news

I always follow the blog gringa-n-mexico. Today she posted about another lady who was pregnant and her baby was dropped by the Dr. at the hospital. Poor mom and baby.
Well, this was very sad news for me. I am a very soft hearted person and I don't like to hear about people in pain or misery either by being sick, losing a child, etc.
But this made me think of more than that, it made me think of my plans of going to Mexico in February. I was ver decided and now I am not so sure if I want to now. I love Daddy Edgar, but he talks of how he lives on a ranch and how he does not really like it, but he wants to see his family (it has been almost 5 years) So he says that if he does not like it, and he knows I will not like it at all because it is so different. As far as housing situations and food situations. I mean from what I understand his family has more money and stuff than other families, but still the power goes out for hours or even days, no AC, no running water in the houses. I am thinking that I am going to live in poverty like in one of the neighborhoods on the commercials that are trying to get children sponsored so they can have healthcare and school and food. I mean that is not the kind of life I want for my kids nor myself. He says that after a few months of living on the ranch we would go to a city if I was not happy. Well I already know I want to go to the city. The closest to the border we can get without getting done away with by the cartels. I would like to do what some other americans do.. live in Mexico and commute to the US to work that way atleast living in a city we will have running water and I can buy a hot water heater and have some of the basics of a normal life. I don't know, but it makes me sad to think about not being with him. The kids love him and I do not understand this situtation at all. I mean how could he just leave and that be the end of everything? Is that possible? I am not looking forward to going to el rancho at all. I am going to miss my job, my grandmother, my TV, being able to drive around and be independant, my kids dr's and dentists, my dr's and everything! I keep on telling him that it is going to be really hard for me that far down in Mexico.. because I am not married to him okay? So when I go to get a visa (fm3) i think, how am I going to get it if i can not show that i have income coming in? If I was married to him then he could sign that he was responsible for me- right? I know i will have the tourist visa for 6 months, but after how am i going to go to the US every 6 months so I will not get thrown in jail and deported for overstaying a tourist visa. I keep on telling him of these problems and he is like well we will see what we can do about the visas and stuff. Well, I know what I am going to do then. I will ride down there with him to meet his family and let them meet me and the kids, but then I am going to get on an airplane and head back home to the US until he can figure out what he wants to do. I can't live on last minute decisions.. i am the type i like to have a plan about my life and know what is going on so i can do what i need to do also.

Anyways, any advice feel free to leave it!