We need an immigration reform.... NOW

I am in kind of a not bad mood, but an aggravated mood today! I was thinking about us having to be separated after the Visa interview until we find out if he will be granted a waiver due to extreme hardship on me. I mean what if my extreme hardships are not good enough for them and they deny him and I am here in the U.S by myself without him for years! I can not stand to even think about it because it makes me hurt for myself, but even more for my kids and baby on the way because they would hurt too. They do not have a voice (they do, but I think everyone knows what I mean by no voice for them) so I have to be their voice. I have to talk for them and make sure they are heard. If my kids really knew what could happen they would be devastated. I want so much for someone to get an immigration reform going.. A REAL ONE. Not an agenda that keeps on getting moved to the end of the line. I think that all families need to be united if possible and as long as they are not trying to commit fraud.
I see all of my friends posts that live in Mexico and I think Man, they are brave women. I do not see myself living in Mexico for any amount of time. I guess I have always been independent and worked to take care of myself and I know that when I go to Mexico I will have to give that up because there will be no work for me where he lives. I worry about how will I take care of my kids, we are okay now here and we are not struggling. I have a good job and he has A JOB so we are doing okay. Every time he talks to his mom, she is like when are you coming? I want to see you. I know that is her only son and she has not seen him in 5 years. I know that it is his mom, but he already wants to go back, why make it worse by EVERY time you talk to him ask him when is he coming? He has kids now and we would probably not make it there and end up having to leave him behind. Is it worth it for him to leave us and be there so he can be sad and not see his kids? I can not go back and forth, too much money. I am going to have another baby. I know his mom probably does not understand the point that I would not be comfortable living in the middle of no where the rest of my life because her way of life is all she knows. Does she expect him to leave me, take the kids and not look back? Some times that is how I feel she thinks. Is that how they are? Does she think that we do not need to be together.. who knows she may not like me because she thinks it is my fault that he is here.. that I am keeping him here.
It is weird because I remember when I was with Elisa's dad (who is from Honduras) his mother was glad that he was here and making a family. She never asked him every time he called when he was going back because she knew that he would be going back to being poor and that is not what she wanted for him, she wanted him to be happy and he was. He was happy here with his daughter (and with me at one time)
I guess I am worried she is not going to like me and she is going to get mad when I do not leave my son there... I know she loves him, but hell why are all the people from Mexico here? To help their families because of the living conditions and lack of jobs and money- right? (the majority anyway) Why would I want to leave my baby over there for 3 or 4 months? If he gets sick what am I going to do from 3000 miles away?? If my baby is sick, he needs medicine not homemade tea or vapor rub. (no offense to anyone, but everyone has their beliefs and ways to raise their kids. My kids do not take meds unless needed and prescribed by the Dr. Example: I would not put vapor rub on my baby's chest if he was wheezing- I would take him to the Dr)
Am I wrong for being and thinking like this?
Well anyway the point of the post was an immigration reform and we need one so he and all others can go back and forth to visit family and also be in the US to be with their US kids and the spouses that they chose.
Can I get an AMEN in here??

(Please if I made anyone mad- don't stop reading my blog- I am not bashing Mexico. I just think I could not make it due to the area where he lives and that I would feel so secluded. If I was within 30 minutes from a City the size of Montgomery where I live I would be fine. If there was a school where I could teach English and get paid decent I would be fine. I can not see myself living with farm animals and no real stores within 2 hours distance...)