Important to all women...

This is kind of personal, but useful, helpful, important information
When I went to my 6 week check up I was called about a week later and told that I had an abnormal pap smear. I was like okay. I did not think anything of it and then the nurse told me all about a procedure that my Dr. wanted to do called a Colposcopy (no not a colonoscopy) and take a biopsy. So I went to do that and I have a really good Dr. so he was able to tell that it was not cervical cancer. He told me that I was very lucky because I was 1 step away from cervical cancer. He told me that I needed to have a LEEP done. (This is a procedure that the Dr. shaves off the cancerous cells. It is no where as bad as what it sounds) I went to have the LEEP and then I went for my follow up appointment 4 months later and I had no signs. I have a very very good Dr. who I knew when I was a child going to his church. (he is not old, he is only in his late 30's early 40's) He is a very good Dr and a Christian man. He told me to keep going to my appointments no matter what, he was not worried about the financial part. The important part of this is I am only 26 years old and he told me that I was a step away from cervical cancer. So all my gal pals out there and every other woman who reads this spread the word! Anyone could get this, anyone could have this same problem and not even know. I believe my baby saved my life, I would not have went to the Dr. (OB/Gyn) if I had not been pregnant. He is my little life saver. I would have had cancer and who knows what before I went to the Dr. I had no signs, no problems, no reason to think that I had this. Everyone spread the word to your sisters, mothers, aunts, cousins, daughters, friends, grandmothers- to everyone. To me this is like a silent killer. I found out that a girl I know passed away in May from this. She had it so bad that it spread to uterus and intestines and she died. She was only 25! She had a 1 or 2 year old son and that is when she found out that she had cervical cancer. I am lucky to have caught this in time because I need to be here for my babies to take care of them and see them grow and go to Kindergarten, graduate from college, get married and to make me a grandmother. Please everyone pay attention and see about yourselves. This is really important.

Baby Edgar is 1!!!!

I can not believe that 1 year ago today I was in great pain at the hospital. I am posting this at 5:20pm (my time) and if I remember right my Dr. came in at about 5:45pm and I was crying really bad. They had me sitting up in the bed (to help the baby come down) and so the epidural was not working well. I was hurting!! My Dr. told the nurse to lay my bed down and not even 5 minutes later I was okay. Baby Edgar made his appearance at 8:37pm and it was the most joyous hour in my life. They had to help him out, my Dr. has to use the vaccuum a little to help him out. He weighed in at 8 pounds and 12 ounces and 21 inches long. Big Baby. So his head was really coned and Daddy Edgar was like oh my. I said don't worry when they bring him to us later he will have a perfect little head. (and he did) Although Daddy Edgar did not get to see him because it was midnight when they brought him to my room. He had to be suctioned out really good and checked out because in the last 45 minutes his heart rate went up to around 200 or 210 beat per minute. My Dr. was a little worried and he said that I was going to have to hurry and have him. He was born 30 minutes later. Daddy Edgar stayed with me the whole time! He only left the night I had him because he had to go to work early the next morning.
So today on Baby Edgars 1st birthday I went to Wal mart and got him a small cake. He just put his hands in it and then he tried to give it to his daddy. We are having his birthday party on January 9th. I am still trying to plan it. We live in an apartment and we do not have enough room. So I am going to say a little prayer at 8:37pm thanking God for my baby. Thanking him that he is healthy and he has had a wonderful 1st year!
I am going to post something else in a little while that I think is very important to all women.
It is what happened when I went to my 6 week check up.

Getting ready for Christmas

Last night we went to my granny's house and made Christmas sugar cookies. Well actually Elisa made everything. My granny bought some of that pull apart sugar cookie dough and Elisa decorated them with red and green sprinkles. She did it all by herself. Granny put them in the oven and took them out of course. I took some pictures and if I ever get a computer I will post some. But she had fun and then she had fun eating some. She wore an apron the whole time. She was so cute.
I need to go Christmas shopping, I have a few things that I need to pick up. I am taking the kids to see Santa Claus again this weekend at Bass Pro shop so I will have a picture of them with Santa. They were charging 17 dollars for 2 pictures. That is unreal. We want to go look at Christmas lights also.
Well what is everyone going to do for Christmas?

Not too much

I don't have too much to say today just posting some stuff. I am ready to be off on Wednesday. I was off on Friday and Saturday and I am already looking forward to my off day. I really just want to hang out at home with daddy edgar and the kids and watch TV. Maybe I am feeling slow today because it is raining. It seems like it has been raining since Saturday. It rained all day Saturday.
Baby will be 1 in 15 days!! I can not believe it. I still have not decided on the party thing yet. We were having a problem finding somewhere to have it, but I think that I have found somewhere. There will be no drinking- which is okay with me, I may have a margarita or 2 (or 3) when we go to eat or if we go to a dance or if we have friends over, but i am not a drinker- like an every day drinker. If we do it at this place then we will be able to do the DJ and I can get a clown. Hey I have to have someone to help entertain- I am not an entertainer and I am not a public speaker. We will have a piñata of course. (Does everyone like how I did that ñ- oooooh hooo little computer trick-- watch this ÑÑÑÑÑÑ ¿¿¿¿¿¿¿ ñññññ- cool huh¿¿?)
Well that is about all for today!
Any party ideas??? Post away- what kind of food can i do for my American family and friends? What kind of games can i do? Any ideas, recipes, etc. feel free to leave it.
Thanks everybody!

Need some info

Okay so yesterday was Dec. 12th, dia de la virgen, I do not understand any of this. I am not catholic so I guess that is why is it really confusing to me. Daddy Edgar and his cousing tried their best to explain it to me , but I still did not get it. So is Guadalupe to them who we refer to as mother mary, the mother of Jesus? They told me yes, but how did her name go from mary to Guadalupe?? (I am not trying to be disrespectful, but I need to know. I am going to Mexico you know) I think they said that you pray to her for protecion- right? I have always watched on TV (Univision) this celebration, but I have never really understood the full meaning. So if someone would help me out please.
Anyway, we went to see Santa Claus last night at the mall and we had fun. I did not buy the pictures, they were 17 dollars for 2 3x5's Uhhhhh.. no way!
We rode the carousel. The kids had fun and Daddy Edgar did too. (Of course I had fun) Then we went to eat and went home. Boring Saturday night right? No not really when you have to work 40 - 50 hours a week it is nice just to be at home in your pj's. Well for me anyway.
I think that we are not going to Mexico until around March because he (we) still owe 3000 dollars on the truck and then there will be the money to pass it into Mexico. Does anyone know any good information on this, like what years can be passed and how much is it? I am kind of looking forward to going to Mexico with him, but then I have my fears. I am going to try and go for a week in February (if we decide to go later on during th year)
What are everyone's plans for Christmas? We usually go to my Mom's and then we will be spending th night with my grandmother. I am going to try to go to Church. They are having a Christmas Eve Service at 4:30pm, so I will go to that. I want my kids to know the real meaning of Christmas. I am teaching her about giving. We are sending Christmas cards to an orphanage in Mexico. There are 55 kids in this orphanage. If anyone would be interested the web address is www.casadeelizabeth.org
I will post soon. Hope to get some comments.

Party Time

My little baby Edagr will be 1 year old on the 29th of this month. This year has went by so fast and I hope that he stays little for a long time. This has been the most exciting year for all of us. Especially Elisa watching him grow from a little baby into a crawler who loves to try and get her crayons and likes to try and pull her hair. When he does she doesn't get mad at him she just laughs and laughs. They are so good together and I think about this when I am making my decision to go ahead and head south. I think of how would we share him and when he was not with me and Elisa, how would she deal with not being with him for long times at a time. I would have to let him be with his dad too (if i did not go) he has been a very good 1st time dad. I am really proud of him, he has done everything for our baby.
Well back to the title of the post... it is time to plan a party for baby. I guess in Mexico everything is different and it is done a lot bigger. So daddy is telling me all these things and I am like well okay let's do it. I went to a birthday party for a 1 year old and it was really big. DJ's, i thought that it was an adults party, but it was for her. Well anyway, I thought to myself and I have still been thinking to myself.. there is no way I am going to do that big of a party for a 1 year old. Well, now the tables have turned and I am the party planner... well the party planner assistant. I now think the bigger the better because I realize that it is a day to celebrate his life, celebrate his 1st year and he is so special to me, so we are going to do it big. I told daddy he can do the majority of the planning and I will throw in my ideas and most of the arranging, as far as where, getting out invitations and the americanized portion of the party. It is his 1st child and I want him to always remember baby's special day! So, his friends have already promised things like a pig- to make barbacoa- i really like this it is good. I like al pastor better, but either way and his cousin is going to buy a tres leche cake. Now for those who do not like fresh pig (i know it's pork- i like calling it pig though) there will be hotdogs and hamburgers. I am also getting an american cake from walmart (how much more american can you get than walmart?? jaja) I asked daddy, when the babies turn 1 and after you sing happy birthday do they let them put their hands in the cake? He said no, I said okay well here we do and so he will get to smack HIS american cake a few times. Hey it is his and he can smack it or take a big bite whatever he wants to do. Actually at walmart they give a small 2 layer cake that I will probably use as his personal cake.
As for the clothes, daddy says he needs to wear jeans, boots, and a cowboy hat.. aww how cute my baby is a vaquero. Daddy even wants a DJ. I hope we can find one.
I am not rich by no means, I am blessed with a good paying job, but not enough to do all this alone. I guess it is custom in mexico for people to volunteer stuff and they are volunteering stuff for this party. So if it was not for them it would not be as big. I will be posting bits and pieces about the upcoming party and if anyone has any ideas or suggestions please feel free to leave them. And I already know someone is going to say he is only 1 and is not even going to remember. well hey i know he is 1 and he is very special and i want everyone to come and help us celebrate his 1st year and to give their best wishes to him for his 2nd year and the rest of his precious life.
Oh yeah.. update on the trip to reynosa.. it has been postponed atleast until january.. work schedules and stuff. But we will be going probably the week after new years.

Going to Reynosa.... maybe

A friend of mine i work with called me up and said hey you want to go to mexico? i said yeah, but i was laughing. she said no for real. i said when? she said next week. she has a friend that can not go and they want her to take her daughter to reynosa so they can meet her and spend christmas with her. she is about 1 or 2 and she was born here and has not seen her grandparents and all her family in mexico. It is just a long drive. i live in alabama and so it would take us a while. my friend says 12 hours to get to the border, but it has taken me 10 or 11 to get to Houston. She is just finalizing with the family to see if they are sure about all this and then she is going to let me know. i kind of want to go, but i am a little scared. i don't want to get stuck in mexico or anything. i do not have my passport, but the kids do. i don't want to get accused of smuggling kids because my son does not look anything like me. i have his passport and everything, but i guess since i have never been by land i am really nervous. thinking about the cartel and all that. well, i guess i know i will be a nervous wreck when i do go with daddy edgar to mexico. Just to let everyone in on a little secret, i am hoping that he will change his mind and not want to go for a while. sometimes i believe if his mom was able to come on a tourist visa that he would be content. everyone has given me the advice that i have expected( as far as going to mexico) that i need to visit 1st. well i know i need to and that is why i am hoping that our date will change from january to about october, so i can go and visit in january or february.
I may have a situation that i will really need and want to stay in the US. i may be expecting. i had a scare a few months ago, but it was due to the pills i was taking. i have been taking them now for 4 months and so i am like how in the world can i be pregnant? i am going to take a test tomorrow and see what happens and then i am going to call my doctor by monday if i have not had any change in anything. i know if i am that will maybe make things hard with daddy edgar. he has his heart set on going the 1st of the year and i do not want him to feel obligated to stay. i will go with him, but only if we go with the plans that we will be living on the border and i will be able to continue working in Texas or whatever state is closest. i am not going to be able to live on the ranch, i need to be somewhere so i can make a quick trip to the border for some chinese food! i love snow crab and shrimp and pizza when i am pregnant, actually that sounds like what i want to eat now. i am on a diet, but i am waiting to take the diet pills until i find out for sure if i have company or not.

Happy (belated) Thanksgiving!

I did not get to post yesterday to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving, so Happy Thanksgiving everyone! We had a good day. We went to eat with my grandparents and then Daddy Edgar had to work yesterday evening. So the kids and I went to a friends house and stayed there until it was time to pick up edgar from work. He got off at 11pm. The kids were so tired and as soon as we got home they went to sleep. Baby ate and ate until we thought he was going to bust. He likes to eat big people food now. Yesterday with my grandparents he ate sweet potatoe casserole, mashed potatoes, little pieces of turkey and ham, a little dressing. He also ate banana pudding and red velvet cake. He did not have his own plate full of this stuff, he ate with me, but he would sure let me know when he wanted his bite. Edgar said he is going to get sick from eating too much. He really was not eating alot, because I was giving him just a little at a time. He loved everything. Elisa ate very good also. She ate Pizza, mac and cheese, a little dressing and bread. Oh by the way we went to Golden Corral. My grandmother did not feel like cooking and she suggested that we go out. It worked out good because Edgar does not really care for all the traditional Thanksgiving dinner, so he got to choose what he ate. He ended up eating steak, chicken, veggies. He also tried dressing and he liked it. I said you need the home made stuff. So maybe I will cook some chicken and dressing soon. (If I ever have the oven again)
Last night after we got home and the kids were asleep we wanted to go to the Mexican dance, so Edgars cousin said for us to go ahead and he would listen for them. We really do not go out that much to places like that. We had fun, they served turkey, rice, and beans at the dance. It was really nice. I hope everyone had a great day yesterday. More later!

Fingers crossed....

I may be looking forward to a new job. I sent my resume off to be reviewed upon their request and I am hoping that I will be getting a phone call soon. I am really excited because it is a day job, but then again I am sad to leave where I have been for almost 4 and a half years. It's like a 2nd home here and I really will miss the people. But life is full of changes and if I am offered this position I will be making a step up! I will be off on weekends and I will be working during the day. Only now, Daddy Edgar works during the evening so I will not get as much time with him. But in a way it will be good, I can be with the kids at night and also we will not have a baby-sitting bill!! Woo-hoo!! If anyone ever wants to go into business that would be the best thing because that is something that will always be in need- childcare!
Anyway, what is everyone doing for Thanksgiving? I think that me, daddy edgar, elisa and baby edgar will be going to Golden Corral with my granny and my granddad. I know there is going to be a loooong line there. My granny said that she was too tired to cook this year and I was going to, but for some reason my oven will not work. Daddy Edgar and his cousin are content cooking on top of the stove, they don't even miss the ability to bake something. I would like from time to time to bake a cake or some cookies or a dinner or maybe Thanksgiving Dinner! The landlord is kind of slow. I mean if we told him today about the oven he would probably come around Saturday or Sunday to see about it.
Elisa turned 4 on Saturday and we had a birthday party for her at pizza hut. It was really nice. About 9 adult and 13 kids cam, that is including Elisa. She had fun and when we were singing happy birthday she looked so serious.. like she had been waiting for this day forever. I wanted to invite alot more people, but my budget would not let me. If I had, there may have been 30 people there. Next month Baby Edgar will be 1 and I have to figure out where to have his party. Since Daddy is Mexican I want to mix the cultures.. you know tres leche cake and an American cake. I would like to have carnitas. If you have not tried carnitas they are good. The only way I have eaten them is fresh from a pig that has just been cooked. They are good and I am funny about what I eat. I would like to do that and then have hot dogs and hamburgers for those who do not eat that. I would like to do this so baby will learn that he has 2 cultures.
Almost Christmas time... I hope that baby will be walking by then. Elisa is really excited. This is really the 1st year she knows who Santa Claus is. When she sees him she says look edgar there's Santa Claus. Elisa got a Christmas dress and I would like to take her to see Santa at the mall in it. I am going to get Edgar an outfit to match. Hopefully I can get some pics uploaded soon.

Happy Thanksgiving if I do not post before!

New Baby Boy!!!

Today a friend of mine had a C section and had a cute little baby boy! The exciting part..... I was there as translator/ support person/ photographer! I was so happy. Let me start off by telling you about her and you will see why i chose to go in with her when she asked me.
She had been baby sitting my 2 kids in the evenings while i was at work. She kept them until she couldn't. Her husband would help her out with them because my 10 month old is a little heavy especially for a pregnant lady. Even when she was not going to be able to keep them she helped me find someone. Her neighbor next door had already volunteered to keep them. She is a stay at home mom and after meeting her and seeing that she is attentive and keeps her house clean and does not smoke or drink, i decided that was the way to go until Maria (my pregnant friend) was able to keep them again. (Note- my kids have always stayed with mexican ladies except for a few months when they went to daycare- which i hated to see end. The state helped me pay for it and i paid only 33 dollars a week for each of them. I loved the daycare it was clean, organized and they even had little parties for the holidays and even baby brought home a gift or an easter basket. The staff loved my kids and were sad when i had to take them out- no way could i afford 200 a week. Hold up on the negative comments- who ever feels they need to point out the fact that i had the state help me. i work and pay taxes and i have the right to whatever benefits that are offered. so if you cant say something nice then go to the next blog- the button is at the top of the page. ;)
Maria is the same age as me and she is alone here except for her husband. She wants to be in Mexico, but is here because her oldest son who is 5 likes it here and her husband wants to be here. She is scared because she has never had a baby in the US and does not know what to expect.
So I started seeing myself in a few months when I am in Mexico. I am going to be alone except for my kids and daddy edgar, of course his family is there, but I really do not know them well. I really want to be in the US, but he wants to go to Mexico- he says that it is not like home here it is all work and then turn around and have to pay everything you earn out in bills. (He has a pig selling business in mexico and some land and a store that his family is taking care of for him right now) And if I was pregnant I would be scared to have a baby in Mexico also. (Which I maybe would as long as it was in a big city.)
So when she asked me to go in I said sure I will and asked me to take pictures and I said sure no problem. After all it was only a C section- I mean how bad could it be?
It was not bad at all! Of course I did not watch them start cutting, but as soon as I saw the pulling I knew that they were pulling the baby out and I could not help myself I stepped around the corner and started snapping pics- did not even notice the stuff around. To see a baby be born to me was the sweetest ,most precious thing to witness. It is the beginning of a new life and I got to see it happen. Then the baby cried and Maria cried and I did a little, but I had to be photographer then. So I went to where they were with the baby and snapped away. Then as soon as they were finished with him, they handed him to me and that is when my thoughts drifted back to my baby edgar's birthday and it made me happy inside like i wanted to have another baby myself. (Hold up- did i just say or type that???? Maybe later when baby edgar can walk and is about 2 years old)
What an experience- I would definetley go in with someone again. Oh by the way he is too cute!

To all you moms-to-be out there what a miracle you have in your stomach! take care of it
To all you moms what a great thing you have done, what a beautiful and wonderful thing.
To all of the mothers who adopted their babies (including my beloved grandmother) it takes more than being pregnant and having a baby to me a mother! I know! my grandmother is the best person i know and she adopted my mother.
To all the mothers who gave their babies in adoption- you know you reason and whatever it may be you STILL did a beautiful thing and it takes alot to make that decision- to accept that you are unable and give the baby life and a chance to be the best they can. They will love you for that! (I love my grandmother and I thank my moms biological mom for giving her a better life. I have my grandmother and she has shown me more love in my life)
To all the mothers who lost their babies while pregnant or after they were born, my heart goes out to you! I am sad for you and I can feel your pain as you have to lay aside the dreams, plans, and hopes you had for that precious child.
Even to all of those who decided to have abortions (for reasons other than medical reasons, rape, incest- that is not for me to judge i have never been there and do not know what i would do) my heart goes out to you that you decided not to go through with your pregnancy.

Sad news

I always follow the blog gringa-n-mexico. Today she posted about another lady who was pregnant and her baby was dropped by the Dr. at the hospital. Poor mom and baby.
Well, this was very sad news for me. I am a very soft hearted person and I don't like to hear about people in pain or misery either by being sick, losing a child, etc.
But this made me think of more than that, it made me think of my plans of going to Mexico in February. I was ver decided and now I am not so sure if I want to now. I love Daddy Edgar, but he talks of how he lives on a ranch and how he does not really like it, but he wants to see his family (it has been almost 5 years) So he says that if he does not like it, and he knows I will not like it at all because it is so different. As far as housing situations and food situations. I mean from what I understand his family has more money and stuff than other families, but still the power goes out for hours or even days, no AC, no running water in the houses. I am thinking that I am going to live in poverty like in one of the neighborhoods on the commercials that are trying to get children sponsored so they can have healthcare and school and food. I mean that is not the kind of life I want for my kids nor myself. He says that after a few months of living on the ranch we would go to a city if I was not happy. Well I already know I want to go to the city. The closest to the border we can get without getting done away with by the cartels. I would like to do what some other americans do.. live in Mexico and commute to the US to work that way atleast living in a city we will have running water and I can buy a hot water heater and have some of the basics of a normal life. I don't know, but it makes me sad to think about not being with him. The kids love him and I do not understand this situtation at all. I mean how could he just leave and that be the end of everything? Is that possible? I am not looking forward to going to el rancho at all. I am going to miss my job, my grandmother, my TV, being able to drive around and be independant, my kids dr's and dentists, my dr's and everything! I keep on telling him that it is going to be really hard for me that far down in Mexico.. because I am not married to him okay? So when I go to get a visa (fm3) i think, how am I going to get it if i can not show that i have income coming in? If I was married to him then he could sign that he was responsible for me- right? I know i will have the tourist visa for 6 months, but after how am i going to go to the US every 6 months so I will not get thrown in jail and deported for overstaying a tourist visa. I keep on telling him of these problems and he is like well we will see what we can do about the visas and stuff. Well, I know what I am going to do then. I will ride down there with him to meet his family and let them meet me and the kids, but then I am going to get on an airplane and head back home to the US until he can figure out what he wants to do. I can't live on last minute decisions.. i am the type i like to have a plan about my life and know what is going on so i can do what i need to do also.

Anyways, any advice feel free to leave it!

I am still here

I have not forgotten about my won blog, but I have so much fun reading other blogs. I know I am not the best at poating everyday nor every week. I am going to try and improve.
Well, almost Halloween! My kids are going to be a horse and a fairy princess. The horse costume has a tail it is so cute. My daughter did not want anything except for a pair of pink fairy wings, so she is going to be a fairy princess. She is going to wear her ballet leotard and tights with the pink wings and I am going to get her a crown to wear. I really wanted to get my son (10 months old today) a pumpkin costume, but I could not find one. I liked the horse better than the teddy bear and I am sure it is going to be cold and the horse is like a full body costume, his hand will stay warm.

Baby Edgar and Elisa

I wanted to post about my kids since I really never post anything just about them.
Let's see where can I start.....

Baby Edgar just turned 9 months old .. 2 days ago and he is so cute. I work full time and I really miss him alot when I work. I work 2nd shift and sometimes I do not get home until midnight and sometime he is waiting up for me. When I come in he gets so happy and bouncing around. Then I pick him up and he looks at me, smiles and hugs me like he is saying he missed me. I always have to say... ahh mi bebe me extraño.... ya esta feliz que su mami esta aqui, and you know all the other baby talk stuff. I really miss him when I am at work, I think about all the cute things he does and I want to hold him all the time, I wish I did not have to work sometimes, but I want to give them everything they need and daddy can't do it alone. We went for a walk today and he was so cute, it was like he was chattering away at the birds, trees, squirrels, etc.
Too cute and he does not like his baby food anymore, he wants to eat from the table.

On to Elisa, she will be 4 years old in November. She is so girly. She wants to have perfume on and she has to have lotion when she gets out of the shower and she has stared to where she wants to take her shower alone. She is so growny. She is so kind hearted too. I was upset the other day about something and I was crying a little. (I was talking to my grandmother about something.. can't remember what, but it was sad.) My daughter has never seen me cry so she came over to me and put her hand on my face and said momma. now stop that whining. It's okay, I am going to get you a tissue. I just thought that it was so cute how she said it. She is like that all the time and man, does she love her baby. She wants to feed him and she wants to be his 2nd mommy. She will play with him so cute and if he gets stuck somewhere in his walker she is there to help him. I hope they always get along so good. He pulls her hair sometimes if she is sitting on the floor and she says edddddggaaar, but then they both start laughing.


My 2 babies.. would not trade these moments for anything!

Sad music video

Ok so I am not the best at titles. Anyway, I was watching TV this morning and we always flip from cartoons to the music channel (bandamax..do they have this in Mexico?)
A song comes on by Ricardo Arjona and Intocable called 'Mojado' I have seen the video before, but it was one of those videos that I like to see, no matter how many times a day it comes on. It was so sad to me to see al the crosses of the people who have died trying to cross the border to get here probably to make a better life for their children. It show little clips of vidoes where the border patrol is getting the people and then it shows a mother and her baby. I just think that is sad how these people have to suffer. I wonder if the immigration law makers even know or care what these people go through. Not only walking for days or weeks in the heat with no water and no food, but having to leave their children and mothers and fathers to come over here and try to make a better life for them. There has to be an answer somewhere, we really need a reform that is going to help these people who come over and are hard workers.
Example, I have a friend who I work with and his sister-in-law is in the hospital here in the US and she is in a coma. She has been in a coma for a while. She has not seen her son since he was 4 and now he is 16 years old. They were trying to get him a Visa to come over because she is in her last days, they would not give it to him. I do not know all the details, but that is sad. I do not know why she has been here 12 years, but I bet that her check went to him and his grandmother (or whoever takes care of him) for school and clothes and food. Me personally I would have had him here with me, but maybe she has her reasons. Another friend of mine told me that the people who bring you over are sometimes mean and will abandon you in the desert if you do not walk fast enough. She said they had to help carry a woman who could not walk anymore, she was in her 40's they say. Daddy Edgar tells me bits and pieces of the pasada but I do not ask much because I get all sad and stuff.
Daddy Edgar has been here 4 years without seeing his family. I am going with him when he goes, but I can not imagine not seeing my grandmother. My grandmother raised me and I am really close to her, she is my mother.
Anyway, I know this video is on You Tube. Check it out. I have never seen the frontera like this. Daddy Edgar says that it really looks like that too. There is one memorial that says 'no olvidado' (not forgotten) and I think that is the saddest to me.

A few new happenings..since 9/11

Well, I am not the best at posting every day not really even every other day, but as soon as I get a computer at home I am going to post more. Well since my last post a few things have happened.. yesterday my kids passports came in the mail. I was excited to get them and daddy edgar was too. Their pictures looked so cute even though they said my daughter could not smile.
We live with daddy edgar's cousin and we were talking last night and he told me that a little boy (10 years old) had passed away from the dengue fever. I was thinking that this was some kind of serious flu like thing that was passing around the community. I remembered seeing it on searchingbliss's posts, so I looked at it and 1 of the comments said that it was west nile. So that made me feel a little better. I got to thinking though, how could someone die of west nile? That was here in the US and I never heard of alot of deaths- or am I not remembering well? Anyway, his cousin was telling me that they were having the little boy's funeral today and that when he talked to his wife she was heloing make tamales. He said that everyone in the area would go to the family's house and sit up all night with them and have tamales. I told my grandmother and she said that sounds like what they used to do here. She remembered her aunt of grandfather passing away and everyone came to the house for the viewing and stayed with them all night. So here in the US we used to do alot they do in Mexico. I thought that was cool that my grandmother knew about all that.
I have been wanting to go to Mexico and take my kids because abuela wants to see her 1st grandson so bad. He will be 9 months on the 29th and I really feel bad about not taking him a long time ago. Right when I was planning on going, here comes swine flu. I am going to wait until December. I'd like to go around the 14th so abuela would get to feel like she celebrated Christmas and his birthday with him. She is so nice and she always asks about Elisa and wants her to come also. She wants them to stay for a long time (like a few months) and I am not ready for that yet. I was thinking about maybe trying to meet her for a few days close to the border so she could atleast see him a few days.
I am happy... a while back I only had 2 followers and now I have 5!! Thanks guys for following and I really like your blogs also. I check them daily!!

Remembering 9/11

I just wanted to do a quick post to remind everyone to remember everyone who was involved in the tradgedy 9/11. I was thinking about everyone this morning and I remembered where I was the morning that it happened. I was just waking up and a friend of mine had stayed the night and I went to the living room and she was crying about what had happened. She is a good friend of mine named Jessica, who I have not introduced in my blog yet. But anyway she is sentimental like I am. I was shocked because we did not know what was going to happen next. I went to the gas station because someone said that gas was going to be out of sight within a few hours and the gas stations were packed! It was a sad day and still is thinking of all the innocent people whose lives were basically stolen from them. All the babies, kids, mothers, fathers, mothers-to-be, fathers-to-be, grandmothers, grandfathers, aunts, uncles, cousins that were lost. I guess I am one to put myself in situations and I think that what if it was my husband or fiance or my kids who were lost and what the lonlieness must feel like. I better end now or I will be crying at work.
Leave me some comments you guys, let me know how you felt or what you were doing this day.

My favorite Mexican Restraunt

We go to a restraunt called LA BAMBA almost every week and the food is really good. Last night I ordered my favorite which is a shrimp and crab meat quesadilla, it is soooo good. I just thought that I would share that with everybody. Last night me, daddy edgar, his friend enrique and enriques girlfriend Heather (she is my friend also- we work together) went out for her birthday.
Heather and I drank 2 pitchers of Margaritas and the guys drank 2 medium blue margaritas. We had fun. Daddy edgar told the waiter that it was heather's birthday so they put the sombrero on her head and sang happy birthday (la mañanita) Instead of giving her cake they gave her a tequila shot. That was weird I have never seen them do that. I would have preferred the cake, I am not a drinker. Last night, only because it was a special occasion. My grandmother, aunt, or god mother try to keep the kids for us one night a week so we can go some where. I think this Saturday coming up we are going to go see The Final Destination at the movie theater. I am looking forward to that, but it is expensive. Well for me anyway. I think 9 dollars is alot to get in and 3 dollars for a coke and 3 dollars for a drink is alot also.
I want to try and go ahead and get started on my FM3- is it possible to start from over here or do I need to be over there?
AMANDA (borders aside) how much was it for you to get yours, for you and your daughter? What about all this bank stuff I am reading about? If I go over to Mexico I am not going to have any money going in my account over here. I hope I do not get thrown out of Mexico.
I saw something about they do not want you to be a drain on the Mexican government, but they don't have food stamps and stuff- do they???
Well, anyway if you have been reading you know that daddy lives on a rancho, well he said that we would go to his mom's for a while and from there we will go to Cancun or Monterrey or some where so 1) we can work and 2) I will be able to make it because we will live in the city.
I am not by any means a high maintenance lady, but I can not imagine myself breaking a chickens neck and living without hot (atleast warm) water and an A/C. I love him so much that I only have those 3 requests; warm water, no live animals to kill to cook, and an A/C, or atleast some kind of cooling device. AND.... if I can not have any of those then I will just have to make do. I think the 3 people that read my blog and i read theirs(borders aside, limon blog, and gringa n mexico) live in the city (or city area- right guys?) and I am hoping that daddy edgar moves me to the city. If I go to Cancun, I hope I will have some visitors! Good night everyone!

Broom stands alone..... for real no joke!

I live in Montgomery, Alabama and there is a city outside of Montgomery called Prattville. It is a nice city, my grandmother lives there. It used to be a small town and now they have so much that if you did not want to you would not have to leave for anything. I want to move there, but you know I am going to Mexico with daddy Edgar, but if we are able to get his papers I would like to buy a house there, good schools also. Anyway, this is not what this post is about.
My grandmother tells me on Wednesday that there is a broom in downtown Prattville that stands alone! This lady is opening a store and they were cleaning or something and moved a piece of furniture and the broom stayed standing up without any support! How weird- right? Well now this smaller town has made cnn news- cool huh? Some paranormal researchers came in and stayed for a while doing observations. You guys should really check it ou. Google it. I put in "broom stands alone" and it pulled it up. I wonder if it will make it to Univision or Telemundo?? That would be cool. Well, nothing else really excited has happened except for my daughter is starting dance school on Wednesday! She is going to be taking tap, tumbling, and ballet. Have a good weekend and check out the broom!

Progress Made

Well, I finally my kids passports applied for and sent off. I have been looking on the travel. state. gov page everyday to see if they are being tracked yet. My daughter looked so pretty in her picture. She looked like a big girl (she is only 3) She had a hard time not smiling. The lady who took the pictures said that she could not smile. Well, as for baby edgar, he is 8 months old, that was fun. He was so cute. He did not want to stop smiling he thought that we were playing. She had to take like 10 pictures of him because he would turn his head or something like that. He was so cute. Finally we had to lay him on a white blanket and they also tried a white poster board. (Hey if any of you have kids that can not stand up yet, tell them to lay them down on something completely white, it saves alot of time) I am so happy about finally getting the passport done for them. I am trying to get to Mexico to see his mom. I talk to her alot and she wants to see the baby so bad. He is her 1st grandson (1st grandchild) and she is dying to see him. Okay another advice post..... what does anyone think about taking a bus?? Dangerous? I know it will be hard with 2 kids, but what about the danger factor? When I go with Daddy Edgar in January or February we are taking his truck, that is different though. I wish I had a car to take. I know my daughter will get tired of being stuck in a seat in a bus and it is a long way.
Like if I leave on Friday afternoon I will get there Sunday morning. I can not imagine that. Anybody know any cheap airlines??? How about that deal priceline offers, name your price. I put in 125.00 as my name your price and it actually calculated the tickets as that and gave me the price. It was like 700.00 for 3 round trip tickets, but leaving from Houston, Texas I live in Montgomery, Alabama. I am going to have to stop watching my FAVORITE novela (it is called Victorinos- it comes on telemundo every night at 9pm alabama time) and work some overtime! I love that show though. HMMMMM... maybe I need DVR.
Anyways, all my blog friends have a good day and I am going to start trying to post mas seguido!

Need some help

Well everyone knows that I had been debating on going to Mexico when daddy edgar goes back.
I am going! But I need to know from some of you that live in Mexico, what do I need?
I know that somewhere I read that they stamp by passport and it is good for 180 days.
I need some kind of Visa right? And how do I get approved? Is there anyway that I would not be approved? I have a daughter that is not his and would she be approved?
We may live in the main city which is a port so I would try to get a job or something, what do I need to do? Help (oh yeah how much is it approx. so I can start saving?)

I can't think of a title for this blog!!??

Hello everyone! I am at work and I decided to post something, I have not posted in a while. Well, tomorrow (Saturday) we are going to the water park. It is about an hour from here and I wanted to go before summer was over. Even daddy edgar is going. I am really surprised that he is going because he does not usually like stuff like that. So when I said let's go get some trunks for you and he was like for what? I said well it is a water park and they have a dress code. I even bought a bathing suit for myself and I am wondering how it is going to look. I had my baby is December and I have not even lost any of the weight that I have gained. I lost 50 pounds before I got pregnant with little edgar and then I gained it all back and some more. But I will lose again!! Well, I will post again later! Everyone have a nice weekend!!

Time flies............. when you have to work!

Hello to everyone!!! Where have I been? Well.... I have been working and for some reason I have not had time to post anything. Everything is going good. Edgar has 2 teeth and he is really cute. Here recently I have been trying alot more recipes that I have found on the blog, "recipes by leslie". Daddy Edgar is wondering where I have been getting these recipes.
Update on my trip to Mexico. Edgar's mom wants the kids to come down there. So as soon as I can get the passports I was going to take them to the border to meet her. I am not ready to take my vacation week yet. So I will use my vacation week when I go get them. The passports are really expensive. Well not really, I have just been putting it off and now I am going to get all 3 at 1 time. I live in Alabama and I am going to fly out of Houston. I know that sounds crazy to drive that far, but I don't think so because I will be saving 600.00! Everytime I ask Daddy Edgar when he plans on going back, he says at the 1st of the year. I want to go because I love him, but I am really going to miss my grandmother. She is like my mom, I really don't (didn't) have a mom and my grandmother raised me my whole life and she is the sweetest person. I wish you all knew her! My daughter Elisa is going through a stage right now. She thinks because baby edgar has 2 little teeth he can eat anything. I was getting ready to go somewhere and she was in the living room with him and daddy edgar said what is this in his mouth? It was a marshmellow from lucky charms cereal! Then the same day while I was washing dishes she gave him a piece of macaroni and cheese, he had already eaten it by the time that I got to him. I saw the cheese on his lips and that is the only reason why I knew she had given him food. Well, if anyone has any tips or advice on me letting the kids go to mexico alone (without me) please let me know. I do not know the country like some of you do. Take Care everyone and check out some of leslie's recipes!

What could possibly be next?

Okay everyone read my last blog about the snake, right??? Well, I go in the kitchen this morning and I hear something scratching around the refrigerator. I turn off the water to make sure I was hearing right and it kept scratching. I was like what is that?? So, I was scares, but the baby was hungry so I was like the fridge is far enough over that if I have to run out I can jump on that chair over there and then I will scream for daddy edgar, who was asleep. Well, I made the bottle and was giving it to baby and I told daddy edgar about the scratching and he said oh it is probably a rat! I said a RAT or a MOUSE? He said a rat, you know when someone says "ratone" I think of a cat sized rat. He said no a small ratone, so I knew that he meant a mouse. Well, I do not like any kind of animal or insect to be in the house that does not belong there, BUT to hear him say it was a mouse made me think that there are probably no more snakes since their dinner was alive and well. To everyone who is reading: I do not live like these people, but for some reason daddy edgar wants to stay there. It is a 4 bedroom house and there is another couple there and they have a daughter who will be 2 in July (Warning: don't say awww, her nickname is tornado, because she throws everything down she puts her hands on. Her nicknake needs to be hurricane- I think they are worse!) I have never seen a mother NOT control their child, this kid is OUT OF CONTROL!! I do not like for Elisa to play with her because the child likes to hit and push and pull on elisa and her clothes. The mother says nothing! Amazing. Elisa does not hit her back because she has been taught not to hit other kids and I am glad that she is well educated and minds me, sometimes she minds me. Anyway, I told Elisa that I was tired of her getting hit on by this little girl and if she does it again then hit her one good time and she will stop. Please tell me if I am wrong, but I always heard that if someone is big enough to hit someone then they are big enough to get hit back. Unless, they are just learning and the mother is TRYING to correct them. But the mother says NOTHING. I went to translate for her and she let her kid wreck the Dr's office, how embarassing. You know how they have all the magazines really pretty on the tables, well when we left there were none on the table and they probably were all torn up. I hope the secretary did not think my daughter did it. Elisa picked them up and the kid did it AGAIN! I need to talk to daddy edgar and tell him do not let her in my room because I do not want her destroying my stuff. I swear the past 3 days I went home there was something missing, that she had gotten. 1 day it was a bottle, 1 day the nail clippers, 1 day a medicine dropper. Like I said, I do not like living with other people anyway, but when their kids barges in my room and messes up and I have to clean it up, I AM NOT HAPPY. Well, I started telling you who all was in the house; me, daddy edgar, my 2 kids, them and hurricane, and another guy who is really nice, he works with me and he has been my friend since before I even really knew daddy edgar and his cousin shares a room with him. I am going to have to tell daddy edgar that i really want to go somewhere else. I mean if we rent with another man or another couple who actually clean up after their child that is fine, but I am not happy! I was living alone during my whole pregnancy and he would come over and stay with me and then he moved in with me in December, my last month, He wanted to go back to live with them because my apartment was small and he was all alone every night while I was working. I understand he was bored. So, when he left he decided to take us with him. He asks me am I happy and I always say yes, because I am happy with him, but not there. I love him so much and he thinks that if I want to leave it's because I do not love him. What do I do?? (Advice- Advice- please) Man, this turned into a long post!!

OH MY!!!

I went into the bathroom at around 4am, while "Daddy Edgar" was fixing "Baby Edgar" a bottle.
I looked down at the floor and I thought that it was an earthworm....... it was a snake!!!!!
I am scared of 3 creatures... snakes, roaches and spiders. I am just standing there like, how did a snake get in my bathroom??? I was confused, but then he moved and I ran in the bedroom and said there is a snake in the bathroom. He went in and ended up getting it out with a broom handle. In the process, he cut his neck. So our unwanted visitor is dead, but I want someone to put him in a bag so I can take him to the Vet and see what kind he was. I am really scared now! Edgar said there is nothing to worry about, but I do not want to get bitten and neither does baby or elisa. There is a "critter man" (pest control man) who wants 150 dollars to come and inspect the house. It is worth it to me. I told Edgar and he said that he will ask the others, who live with us or who we live with and see what they say. I do not like living with others, BUT that my friends is a whole new post. I will let you know as soon as I find out what the little snake was. Hopefully there are not anymore!!!

Is anyone out there?

Well, maybe soon someone will start reading my blog. I know it is not interesting without pictures. I am probably not going to be able to put any on for a little while longer than what I thought because I have to pay a ticket. I was going to get an ACER laptop because I only want it for internet use not to use for work or anything. I hope I can still hook up my phone to it. I am at work right now and I had a minute, so I was going to post something. Well, tomorrow I am off and I do not know what I am going to do...... Probably watch TV and maybe go to McDonalds.. Big day, right?? Well, there is not much to do in Alabama and it is suppose to rain so it will probably be a boring day. Hey, if anyone here follows Honduras sprouts, don't forget to keep mama sprout and her family in your prayers right now.

FINALLY

Well......... I am finally on blogspot as a blogger, not just following and commenting on blogs anymore. I am new at this and I do not have a computer at home yet, so I will probably not have any kind of pictures on here for a few weeks. If anyone has any kind of helpful info that they can give, Pleeeease be so kind and leave me a comment with the info. I want to make my blog cute like the others that I have seen. Also, if you did not read about me. I am a mother to 2 kids, who are hispanic. So I really like to blog with everyone, but I am really interested in other bloggers who share the same lifestyle as me. You know with the Spanish husband and living or trying to live in another country. Edgar, my son's dad, says he is going to Mexico at the end of this year. I want to go, but he says that I will probably not adjust. So, what?? He is planning on leaving me and heading off to Mexico in the sunset??? I do not think so. I mean, we live together. Finally after many months of living in our seperate homes, and alot of confusion.. we live together! That is what I wanted and now, I am going to be alone again whenever he goes to Mexico? That is really hard to think about right now. I hope he stays or I hope he wants to take me. I understand I am different. I do not eat spicy food and I am not an outdoorsy person. I do not like roaches and I am not to fond of dogs running wild at me barking. He says that sometimes, insects can get into the houses over there. DUH... the same here. I mean he said it like a herd of roaches the size of hamsters are going to run in and take over. I am fluent in espanol, so I know for that part I will fit in. It is muy diferente and I know and I would expect that. Who knows?? Keep on following and eventually, YOU AND I, will both know what happens and we can talk about how big the roaches are (if he takes me) or how sad the day was when he left. That is a loooooong time away, but this is life (asi es la vida) and it is eventually going to happen. Hopefully, I will be over there with my raid can and not here alone with the kids and my box of Kleenex.