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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Blanket Amnesty?

What is blanket amnesty? I was looking at foxnews and it said that the Obama Administration is looking to possibly do a blanket amnesty. I hope so. I was reading the comments and people can be so stupid and mean.
Anyway, everything is going good with my pregnancy except that I am not really much bigger. I have been thinking of names and I really like the name Julian. I think that it is cute. I wonder if daddy edgar would like it. I have not told him yet. He was kind of wanting a girl, but now he is glad that we are having a boy. 2 sons. How cute. He talked to his mom the other day and she said for us to let Edgar and Elisa go over there for a while, but I can not do that. Days turn in to weeks and weeks to months. They are my kids and I would like to take care of them. Plus, my son would not understand why I left him and I do not want to ruin the trust that we have with each other. He would feel like I abandoned him. He does not understand that I would go back and get him. If he was to get sick or something I would be so far away and I would not be able to get to him. I don't understand and have never understood how women can come over here and leave their kids in Mexico or where ever for years and years. I could not do that. I lived with my grandmother when I was growing up, but that was best for me. And thank God I did. My granny is my #1, she is my mom.
I do not have a good relationship with my mom and I am not sad or let down about it really. I do not want to sound ugly, but she does not care anything about me and my kids. She does, however, care to criticize the Hispanic race. I can't stand when people make a comment about something and then say, 'oh, i don't mean you'
Yeah the hell right. You mean everyone and I am one of them! I am proud of it too. I am even thinking about dual citizenship for my boys! Does anyone know anything about that?

Well, more later!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Good News...I think

I do not keep up with politics too much, but I went to foxnews website today to see what was going on and I saw 'Obama Administration to file suit over Arizona Immigration law' I was like OMG, I can not believe it. To me it seemed like a way of the President and his staff taking up for the immigrants and they agree that this is the wrong way to handle it. It makes me have hope that they are going to reform immigration in some way and it could really help people. I was looking back to 2000 (I think) and there was some kind of LIFE act that they put in place. I think that was nice and he would not even have to leave the US to adjust status. I think that leaving the US, not knowing what is going to happen is the hardest part. Because once you are in Mexico, you are there.

Well I guess I will have to look and see what is going on. I am happy for the people in Arizona. Regardless of other stuff they have the human right to be happy and not feel like animals in cages.

PS- If anyone has any negative or racist comments keep them off my blog =) Post them elsewhere or start your own blog! Thanks in advance.

Here's to you Arizona!! =)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I am having a.....

BOY!!!!
Yep, we are having another baby boy. I went for my ultrasound on Tuesday and they told us. We are happy! We has only been thinking of girl names and so we are going to have to start thinking of boy names now. I am now 21 weeks pregnant. More than half way through. Yayyy! I am not big at all though. Maybe he is going to be a small baby.

In the middle of all the good news there is something kind of sad going on.
Daddy is really home sick. He wants to go to Mexico so bad, but he knows that we would not be comfortable over there and does not want to be separated from us. It makes me feel really sad for him and it makes me feel even sadder that this wonderful country can not give these people a chance. (I do not say these people in a negative way) I know that he is only here because of me and the kids, and if he had his way he would have been long gone. It makes me feel caught in the middle. I know that every time he talks to his mom she asks when are you coming and I know that does not help at all either. The thing is he only wants to go and visit. I guess I am a little insecure also. I know that he loves me, but I worry that if he goes he will meet someone else. I know I should not be like that, but all these people have told me all these horror stories about how the girls over there will basically throw themselves at him because they think that he has money and stuff. I don't know what to do nor what to think.
I personally do not want to live with his mother either. I love her to death, but I do not know how it would be living with her. I have some friends here and their mother in laws live with them and it is like they take over the kids and everything else. I am not for that. I carried them for 9 months and I would like to have a say in their lives. I do not mind sharing, but please do not try and take my spot and think that you can do it better than me.
He is going to try and hold out until his Visa appointment next year.
Maybe he is having a home sick day or few days. I hope, because I am not ready to give everything up just yet to go to Mexico. I will not have my baby in Mexico. Not being mean or anything, but he lives in the middle of no where! Nothing is there and I don't think it would be in the best interest of the kids. I have told him and told him I would go, but not to live in the middle of no where. I need to live where I can still work and provide for my kids. They have to be my main concern. I have to decide for them, they can not decide for themselves. I have to keep my family together. If only he lived in somewhat of a city- not in the middle of NOWHERE.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

14 year old shot on border..please read and share with others =(

Has everyone seen the story about the 14 year old who was shot by the US border patrol? How sad. He was a kid and for throwing rocks at authority from his side of the freakin' fence he should be disciplined not killed. Poor mother of this niƱo, because that it was he was a little boy. I can not imagine how she felt. I have a son who may hang with the "wrong" crowd one day (I pray not, but you can only teach your kids not make their decisions) and he may paint a wall or throw a rock or do something like that, and yes he would deserve punishment, but no one has the right to kill a kid that is not even armed with anything, but a stone. How sad. This is really heavy on my heart. Pure prejudice.. pure hatred. They do not need unqualified people like this working on the border. They need to be trained when to pull the trigger and when not to pull it. I hope that border agent will never have peace in his heart.
Pray for the family.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Update

I can not believe I have not posted in so long.
Everything is going good. I am 19 weeks pregnant and I am going to find out what I am having next Monday! I hope it is a girl, but as long as the baby is healthy I am fine. If anyone has any Spanish name ideas please feel free to leave them! For boys and girls. I have a few, but I know I could run in to some different things. I want something really Spanish.
See what you all can come up with..... =)