Freakin' out!¿¿⌐getting on a plane-oh my gosh!

Yes, I am freaking out! I am going to get on an airplane in exactly 2 weeks and 3 days! I have never been on an airplane and I really am just about to decide to forfeit the money I spent and take the bus. I am scared.. I mean scared not worried, but scared. I want to go and see my Dr. and see about getting something for my nerves. I am going to have to take a whole one just to GET ON the thing! (I have never taken anxiety medicine, but I know some people who have) If I have to sit there long enough while everyone is loading then I may be getting off and going back home.
To everyone who has ever flown, were you like this also? I am not worried about take off, I am worried about landing and mechanical problems and lightning! I am going on a continental expressjet. I am leaving Birmingham, Alabama going to Houston, Texas and then to Veracruz, Mexico-- yes i am finally doing it. I am taking the leap to go and see what all this mexico rancho living is about. Did I mention I am going on a Thurday and coming back on a Wednesday? Yeah, I don't think I can take big doses of the rancho at one time. Just a little to break myself in and then I will go back later on this year. (Hopefully by bus.)
Is flying really bad? Pleeeeasssse tell me.. what is it like going up and then down and what the hell is turbulence???
Has anyone been to any of these airports? Any tips for 1st time fliers- like ear popping and all that stuff?

Oh well I have sudden calming feelings come over me and then I get all worried and crazy like feeling.

2 good pieces of news for me:

1- I am getting married! I am getting married on Wednesday, March 3rd! We are getting married at the courthouse on that day and later when we go to Mexico we are going to have a small wedding in the church. He did not want to get married without his family and I don't blame him. My family is happy that I am getting married! What should I wear to the courthouse? I am not wearing a wedding dress. I will wear a dress, but not a long wedding dress with a tiara and veil and all that. Nope... not to the courthouse. We are going to have a small gathering afterwards at my favorite mexican restaurant! I thought I was never going to marry this man. We have only been together for 2 and a half years, but I know he is the one and I love him sooo much.

2- I am pregnant!!! I just found out Saturday! I took one of the digital tests and it said pregnant- I thought it was going to say not pregnant, but yeah it said I am. I took another last night and guess what??? I am still pregnant!
No we are not getting married because I am pregnant. We were going to get married the 10th of February, but we decided to wait until a very good friend of mine was going to be back in town and she got in town that 18th, but I was not ready. I still need to get my shoes and his shoes and belt. It is hard when you work all the time. But we are getting married on the 3rd of March!


I wonder what his mom is going to say about me being pregnant and Edgar being so little. He is 14 months, and he will be almost 2 when I have the baby. I think she wants me to leave them in Mexico for a while, but I can't! I just can't do it. I was thinking about it at one time, but that idea quickly became a no way. Not because I do not trust his mother, but because I do not know anything about where they live and if they get hurt or sick it is too far for me to get there quick!
I am going to promise to her that I am going to do my best to take the new baby to see her as soon as I can. I would like to go back in December. After I have the baby and before Christmas. I will have to get someone to go with me because I can only have 1 infant in my lap.
Well I am sure I will post before I get on the plane. Any helpful advise please be sure to leave it for me.
Oh and for the record the probability of crashing is 1 in 11 million!

Edgar can walk!!

I can not believe it, he just got up and started walking. At first on Saturday (he was 1 year, 1 month and 1 day old on this day) he let go of his dad and took about 3 little steps and sat down. Then he crawled around for about 2 or 3 hours and he got up and walked to the couch. Not that far, but he did it. The lady that keeps them while I walk just called and said your son is walking really good now. She said that he brought his bottle to her. How cute. I can not wait until tomorrow morning (or tonight if he is awake) to watch him walk for a little while. If he will. Can't wait to post some pictures.. one day.
As for my trip to visit the family in Mexico I am going I just have to wait and get a good flight and oh yeah my passport, but I am going to do that next week. I am going to get the 2 week passport deal. My kids have theirs, but I do not have mine.
I am thinking about the whole leaving from Reynosa thing and if my friend can take me then yeah I will leave from Reynosa, but I decided I am not going to be catching taxis and buses with 2 kids (1 who like to talk to everyone and wander off to look at things and one who I am still going to have to carry) and not to mention the suitcases I am going to have to take.
Do they sell Gerber Graduates in Mexico? I am going to have to take my kids cereal and all the food they like because they are picky eaters. Well my daughter is, but my baby will eat anything. But someone (who is from Mexico) told me that I need to watch what I eat because the food is different since it is really fresh I may not get used to it really fast and may get sick to my stomach. Does anyone know what that means?