Back from Mexico

I have been back from Mexico since the 17th, but I am no longer able to access the internet from work. So where am I posting today, you ask? I am at the internet cafe in Kmart. I only have 30 minutes so I am going to make all this short. I went to Mexico and made it back safe. The airplane was not as bad as I thought. Going up was better than coming down. His family is great! It is a very different life over there and I do not know if I could honestly get used to living there unless I HAD to- of course I would. I love Edgar and I would not want to be away from him.
Everything went good. The food was good. His mom, dad, sisters, and other family members that I met were all really nice. It is really rural Mexico. I mean they have a school and a clinic and pharmacy and a small store, but the closest place to actually have everything is about an hour and a half away. I miss getting to read everyone's post and I hope soon I will be able to read them all again and catch up on everything that I have missed out on in the past 3 weeks!

Well I am married!! We got married on Tuesday the 23rd. It was nice, I will post some pics as soon as I can. But, I am oficially married! Yayyyy!!!
I was smiling through the whole thing! Dreams do come true! I say that because I have been through a lot with daddy edgar. There was a time when we were not even living together and when I think back to that I am like aww man look how far we have come since then. I love him so much and I am happy to be married. I could tell that he was happy too. He smiled throughout the whole thing also.

Well I am going to end this post now and I hope I will be able to catch up really soon!

1st pregnant post

Well, if I had not taken the test before now, I would absolutely know I was pregnant now! According to the web sites I am 5 weeks pregnant. But you know they go by the 1st day of your last cycle, so realistically I feel like I am about 3 weeks pregnant. And I am feeling it! I think I am anyway. My baby has been sick with diarrhea and he has a diaper rash from it(any advice on what to do for this? I am tired of fighting the rash- I am willing to try home remedies) Daddy Edgar was also sick last night and the night before with a fever of 102. Elisa is not sick! Thank goodness! I am feeling very very nauseated. I feel like I need to lay down and shut my eyes and take some of the phenegan for nausea. Why don't I take the phenegan.. I am at work and if I take it I will fall asleep. That is why I do not like to take it at all because it makes me sleep a lot. And if you do not get the sleep out, it feels like you have been drinking all night and woke up still drunk (not that I would know that feeling...)
I am not a drunk, but we have had our nights of fun. few and far between because I am not the type to leave my kids with a baby sitter much unless it is my granny or my aunt and they are older so they can only do it about 1 or 2 times a months. Hey 2 a piece that would be every weekend, no just kidding I am not the type that likes to go out especially when I only get 2 days off from work. I especially do not like going out when I am pregnant . I am kind of lazy when I am not at work when I am pregnant. I do what I have to do and what I need to do, but nothing more. I will be glad when this nauseated feeling goes away. I wish I knew what it was that was making me sick.. whether it is the 24 hour bug or the 9 month bug.

Less than a week and I will be on the plane. I am really getting excited, but I just want us all to be feeling better.
I found out my baby can take a piece of checked luggage and a carry on item plus a personal item. His personal item is going to be his umbrella stroller and his carry on is going to be his diaper bag.
I am not as nervous as I was. Edgar's mom said that she is very happy that we are coming and that she is glad to meet us. That made me feel happy.

Oh by the way.. we were unable to get married yesterday because Daddy Edgar has been sick and we did not feel like getting up on Thursday morning to do anything! I am not going to say exactly when we are going because when I tell someone a day for some reason we always have something come up. We are going before I go to Mexico though.

I need some email addresses for a free T-shirt

For real and you all can get one too! It is a T shirt that that says Immigration Reform for America or something like that. I posted on that yesterday and now today when I check my email, there is that offer. I have to send it to 5 people and they will give me my T-shirt! Cool huh?
Well only 1 week and 1 day until I go to Mexico- I am really getting excited now! Wow... I can not believe all this time has passed.
Oh yeah and I have been reading the website a lot. I came across something that said that I could take a bag for my baby- not a carry one, but a real bag. He gets one since we are flying international. I am going to start packing on Saturday, because I am working next week and my next day off will be the day that I am leaving. I think that Saturday is going to be a busy day for me. I went to a consignment sale and got some summer clothes for my kids. I am going to wash them tomorrow and get them all ready. I already picked out his outfit that he is going to be wearing when he meets his abuela for the 1st time.. I hope that he jumps into her arms the 1st time he sees her! Although my sister-in-law is coming to the airport to pick me up. She is excited too! Edgar is the 1st grandson, nephew and all that! I know they must be so excited to meet him.. finally after waiting what seems like forever.
Well if anyone wants to share their email so we can all have matching shirts.. go ahead! Thanks

We need an immigration reform.... NOW

I am in kind of a not bad mood, but an aggravated mood today! I was thinking about us having to be separated after the Visa interview until we find out if he will be granted a waiver due to extreme hardship on me. I mean what if my extreme hardships are not good enough for them and they deny him and I am here in the U.S by myself without him for years! I can not stand to even think about it because it makes me hurt for myself, but even more for my kids and baby on the way because they would hurt too. They do not have a voice (they do, but I think everyone knows what I mean by no voice for them) so I have to be their voice. I have to talk for them and make sure they are heard. If my kids really knew what could happen they would be devastated. I want so much for someone to get an immigration reform going.. A REAL ONE. Not an agenda that keeps on getting moved to the end of the line. I think that all families need to be united if possible and as long as they are not trying to commit fraud.
I see all of my friends posts that live in Mexico and I think Man, they are brave women. I do not see myself living in Mexico for any amount of time. I guess I have always been independent and worked to take care of myself and I know that when I go to Mexico I will have to give that up because there will be no work for me where he lives. I worry about how will I take care of my kids, we are okay now here and we are not struggling. I have a good job and he has A JOB so we are doing okay. Every time he talks to his mom, she is like when are you coming? I want to see you. I know that is her only son and she has not seen him in 5 years. I know that it is his mom, but he already wants to go back, why make it worse by EVERY time you talk to him ask him when is he coming? He has kids now and we would probably not make it there and end up having to leave him behind. Is it worth it for him to leave us and be there so he can be sad and not see his kids? I can not go back and forth, too much money. I am going to have another baby. I know his mom probably does not understand the point that I would not be comfortable living in the middle of no where the rest of my life because her way of life is all she knows. Does she expect him to leave me, take the kids and not look back? Some times that is how I feel she thinks. Is that how they are? Does she think that we do not need to be together.. who knows she may not like me because she thinks it is my fault that he is here.. that I am keeping him here.
It is weird because I remember when I was with Elisa's dad (who is from Honduras) his mother was glad that he was here and making a family. She never asked him every time he called when he was going back because she knew that he would be going back to being poor and that is not what she wanted for him, she wanted him to be happy and he was. He was happy here with his daughter (and with me at one time)
I guess I am worried she is not going to like me and she is going to get mad when I do not leave my son there... I know she loves him, but hell why are all the people from Mexico here? To help their families because of the living conditions and lack of jobs and money- right? (the majority anyway) Why would I want to leave my baby over there for 3 or 4 months? If he gets sick what am I going to do from 3000 miles away?? If my baby is sick, he needs medicine not homemade tea or vapor rub. (no offense to anyone, but everyone has their beliefs and ways to raise their kids. My kids do not take meds unless needed and prescribed by the Dr. Example: I would not put vapor rub on my baby's chest if he was wheezing- I would take him to the Dr)
Am I wrong for being and thinking like this?
Well anyway the point of the post was an immigration reform and we need one so he and all others can go back and forth to visit family and also be in the US to be with their US kids and the spouses that they chose.
Can I get an AMEN in here??

(Please if I made anyone mad- don't stop reading my blog- I am not bashing Mexico. I just think I could not make it due to the area where he lives and that I would feel so secluded. If I was within 30 minutes from a City the size of Montgomery where I live I would be fine. If there was a school where I could teach English and get paid decent I would be fine. I can not see myself living with farm animals and no real stores within 2 hours distance...)

I am okay.

As you can see from the last post I was really worried about the flight. I still am a little worried, but I am hoping that everything is going to be okay! Well I am getting excited now! Less than 2 weeks and we will be there! I guess I have been wanting to meet his mom so bad that I can not believe it is really going to happen. I am excited to meet everyone and see how it is there. I am getting married on Thursday and I am excited about that also. We are not going to have a wedding, but it's okay. We may be able to have something later on.
I have a lot of cool things happening this month and well this year actually. I am going to Mexico next week. I am coming back on a Wednesday and I will be going that Thursday or Friday to get a mobile home. It's a start and later on in my life I would like to build a home. Right now we want something that is paid for, so we do not have to pay rent. That will be nice. Well also Elisa is going to get in the Pre K program, I did not know that Alabama had this in the public schools. So hopefully the list is not too long and she will be able to go by August. She is going to be 5 years old in November so she will not go to Kindergarten until next August. She is ready to go and sometimes I am ready for her to go. No, really she just gets bored at home and also I think that it would be good for her to be with other kids instead of trying to be momma to baby edgar. Then I will be having a baby this year. I decided that I want to wait it out, I have been induced before, but this time I would like to feel the excitement of going in to labor at a surprise time. I won't go for natural though! I am not even thinking about it. I am also getting my tubes tied. I am kind of sad about that, because there is a difference in not wanting to have any more kids and not being able to have anymore kids. I hope all goes well with my pregnancy. I am already thinking about baby names! I hope I have a girl, but either way I want a healthy baby- boy or girl. If I have a girl I want to name her Sofia Pilar, but that will probably change 10 times before I have her and then end up nothing close to it. I was going to name Elisa- Liliana and call her Lily, but that changed. There was a name that I really liked, but my granny said no way in this world are you going to name her that. I liked and still like the name...... Miroslavia and call her Lavy, I think it is Russian or something. Weird name? Now if I have a boy I want to name him Julian (that's my dentist name, but I am not naming him after my dentist) Ok for all my non spanish speaking friends it actually sounds like Hulian, but they will call him Julian all his life. I have a few other names, but for now I am stuck on Sofia and Julian or maybe Alex or Lily or Monica or Lucy or Juliette or Damian... okay see what I mean. Anyone have any ideas? I want something different. I like the name Sarita also- I like the way it would be pronounced in Spanish,not in English especially Southern English. Something like this.... Sureeda. (jejeje - no offense to anyone from the south- I am a southern girl too born and raised!)